Life, Once Again!

hand which was clenching the script to the point that the script was being creased.

“Seol.”

“Yeah.”

“I gave her some milk a while ago, and it seems like that was the problem.
I feel a little bad as well.”

“What? Hey! How can you give her something like that inside a vehicle!”

“Sorry, I’m really sorry.”

“You….
Hey, Kim Yuna.
Do you feel sick?”

“Eh?”

Gaeul grabbed Yuna’s hand.
When she did, Yuna replied ‘yes’ in a small voice.

“Is it bad?”

“No! It’s nothing serious.
I’m sorry.”

Choi Seol undid her hairband and shook her hair loose.

“Taehoon! You fill in Yuna’s spot for now.
Everyone, focus and continue.”

After saying those words, Choi Seol knelt down next to Yuna.

“Give me your hand.”

“What?”

“I said give me your hand.”

Yuna put out her hand.
Choi Seol frowned and started massaging Yuna’s hand on the part that connected the palm and the wrist.
Yuna flinched as though it was quite painful.

“Endure it.
This is the best thing when you have a bad stomach.
There are cases where medicines give you side effects.
How do you feel? A bit better now?”

“Yes.”

“Gaeul, do the other hand for her.”

Gaeul nodded.

“Sorry for shouting.”

“It was my fault.
I know that eating something inside a moving vehicle is a bad idea, but I still gave it to her.”

“Yeah, you’re a problem because you are so generous to others.
Kim Yuna, do you think you’re getting better?”

Yuna quickly nodded.

“For now, keep massaging it.
Close your eyes as well.
Unless it was actually bad food, you’ll feel better when you get off.”

After massaging for a while, Choi Seol picked up the script and led the read-through again.

“Gaeul-seonbae.”

When Choi Seol walked away, Yuna spoke.
She looked like she had a lot to say.
Gaeul looked at her eyes.
Her eyes contained unease, nervousness, and even a sense of guilt.
What would happen if Yuna confessed again and she heard the same thing she heard last time? She probably wouldn’t be able to laugh it off like a character in a movie.
Confessions required courage beyond imagination.
And after a confession, the confessor would become uneasy because of the potential aftermath.

Was Yuna in a situation where she could endure that storm? Gaeul would have to shake her head to that question.
What this junior needed right now was the concentration to go up on stage and the energy to release on the stage.
If she wasted energy apologizing and making excuses for a vague matter, she would have little energy on the stage.

“I saw hearts in your eyes as soon as you heard Maru’s voice just now.”

Gaeul looked at Yuna’s expression.
There were a lot of complex expressions on her face, but the biggest one of them was confusion.

“You still like Maru, don’t you?”

“Eh? No, that’s, uhm….”

“Yuna.”

“Yes!”

“Don’t get stiff because of something like that.
Do you think I would care about something like that?”

Yuna blinked several times.
Her lips melted after being frozen from all the nervousness.

“You can stay close to him.
You don’t have to mind me.”

“Eh? But….”

“I was like that too.
There was an oppa I liked in middle school, and he had a girlfriend.
But what could I do? My feelings for him didn’t disappear immediately.
Also, it’s not like Maru and I are engaged or anything, so you don’t have to feel so much guilt.
That’s just how everyone gets by.”

The moment she finished those words, she heard a voice.

-Pretending to be an adult, pretending to be generous, pretending to have good endurance, pretending like it’s for her sake, pretending to be cool about it.
What a good pretender you are.

Gaeul was unable to reply to that voice.
That was because Yuna, who looked like she was about to cry at any moment, had a smile on her face.
She looked liberated.

“Sorry, seonbae.
I still like Maru-seonbae.
That’s why I felt scared whenever I saw you.
I felt sorry.
I knew that I couldn’t be like this.”

“It’s okay, it’s fine.
Don’t fret over something like that.
You’re going to be acting together in that drama anyway.
I heard you two were lovers in it, right? Being close to him is natural.”

“But….”

“I said I don’t mind.
Right now, Maru and I are dating because we get along, but you never know what the future holds.
You know, I think it’s somewhat funny to tell other girls not to get close to him just because I’m dating him.
I mean, that just shows that I’m not confident, right?”

Gaeul took out some tissues from her bag and gave them to Yuna.
Yuna dabbed her tears and put on the relaxed smile she had when she just joined the club.

“Do you feel okay now?”

“Yes.”

“I don’t have to worry about the stage, right?”

“Yes!”

Gaeul smiled and patted Yuna’s shoulders.
It seemed that the sense of guilt that weighed down her body had mostly lifted.

-Hypocrite.
In the end, you still appealed to her that you are the one dating Maru; to not to touch him.
You just did it in an indirect way so that she doesn’t catch on.
You are really evil.
You always were.
You always had to have everything.
You want to stay in a good relationship with your junior, but you don’t want what is yours to be taken away.
But you know what? People only have two hands.
If your hands are full because you’re greedy, you won’t be able to grab the important thing when it truly matters.

Gaeul looked outside.

She didn’t want to listen to that voice.

-You will have to face it without dodging it.
Whenever it is or whatever it is.

Shut up – Gaeul told ‘her’ those two words with difficulty.

KTLChamber's Thoughts

Gee, this rabbit inside Gaeul doesn't seem as cooperative as the masked man within Maru…

Well, not that surprising if our(my) assumptions are true.
Gaeul has 'opted' to go back to the past multiple times (20 times at least), because she 'wanted' Maru (if you know what I mean).
And the rabbit (presumably also her), has watched her take that option multiple times.
(For Maru, it was just 'congratz, you get another chance!', not 'Do you wanna go back?')

Now, this is just an assumption, but if Maru's death triggers her memories to come back (!!), that would make her even MORE selfish.

On a side note, I think I overwrote chapter 690 with this chapter in my google drive folder…
Good thing I uploaded it already.

Editor's Note:
I'll add my own thoughts to what Chamber said.
I'm not sure if she gets her memories back, or if the 'first' her just knows everything and is watching from inside the current her (like the Maru inside Maru).
If so, it makes sense why she is so bitter.
She is the most selfish one, the one that is essentially 'killing' Maru over and over (hence the don't hate her too much), just so she can enjoy his presence.
Now, we are on the 21st life, and the rabbit seems to be very against Gaeul keeping her relationship with Maru, but she never tells her no.
The suffering rabbit, who has lived so many times and watched her beloved die each and every time, is trying to end the cycle, but once again she is selfish (since she does not want to do it herself) and is pushing that responsibility on the current Gaeul.