Love History Caused by Willful Negligence

the tone and vocalization of their voices, but when he listened to them so closely, he felt like a completely different person.

 

Kim Youngha, not Lee Wooyeon, was behind him.

 

“Skip the line of Mr.
Kang Youngmo.”

 

“Ah, yes…”

 

Inseop eagerly began to find his lines and read them.

 

“Do, the master…”

 

Even if he tried to think that he was just reading a novel, he was worried about the name Lee Wooyeon called behind his back, so he started stuttering again.

 

“Uh, for some reason, I’m here…”

 

“The next line is from Kang Youngmo, so I’ll move on.”

 

A strong voice followed the soft voice.

 

“I’ve come to you with something to share with you.”

 

From then on, it was a scene where Kang Youngmo and Lee Wooyeon had a verbal battle. Inseop, wondering what to do now, held his breath and waited for Lee Wooyeon’s instructions.

 

“The lines start on page 5.”

 

Inseop hurriedly turned over the script. From there, it was a scene where the two shared their hearts in the backyard.

 

“Gi, girl…, gi, girl…”

 

The person behind his back is not Lee Wooyeon. It’s not Lee Wooyeon. Not Lee Wooyeon… Even though it was Kim Youngha, his heart was pounding. His tongue did not move freely. Inseop sweated and read the lines slowly.

 

His stuttering can be frustrating, but Lee Wooyeon quietly waited for Inseop’s line to end.

 

“The girl…  Ma, Master… Le, let me tell you…”

 

“I will be waiting here, so please speak slowly.”

 

Inseop felt guilty as he suddenly seemed to have made the other person’s role stutter. He doubted whether reading these lines would be of any help.

 

“I have someone in my heart…”

 

He could feel Lee Wooyeon slowly nodding his head from behind. It was a move according to the script. Choi Inseop read the lines written in the script. It was a scene where Soohyeon showed the thimble she received from Youngha when she was young and said that there is only one Jeongin in her heart.

 

“This insignificant thimble is a sign that my heart belongs to him.”

 

Having said that, he had to smile while putting the thimble into his finger.

 

It was nothing but a line. He could read the text without emotion, but his hands were shaking. Choi Inseop grabbed the script with all his might. I thought it was fortunate that Lee Wooyeon, who was sitting back to back, did not see that his hand was shaking.

 

He was hopeless. Sitting like that, with a cold sweat from a single line with no meaning.

 

Reading this didn’t mean he was speaking his heart.

 

‘No, my heart is already dead…’

 

“You can read the next line.”

 

His face heated up at the calming voice he heard from behind. It sounded like an interrogation to reveal the truth quickly, so he couldn’t even raise his head.

 

Why the hell was he here? Maybe he was fulfilling his greed under the pretext of sacrificing for Jenny.

 

Inseop stared at the letters on the script. He held back tears from welling up.

 

These words were not his heart. His heart was no longer here.

 

Because he had to hate Lee Wooyeon. No, because he hated him.

 

Suppressing his emotions as much as possible, Inseop read the lines.

 

“This insignificant thimble is my heart… uh…?”

 

The next words did not continue. Choi Inseop quickly covered his nose with his palm and tilted his head back. Lee Wooyeon turned around.

 

“What’s wrong? Do you have a nose bleed?”

 

“… Yes.”

 

“You can’t tilt your head like that.”

 

Lee Wooyeon took a tissue and put it under Inseop’s nose and said.

 

“The blood runs all the way back. Lean forward like this.”

 

Choi Inseop bowed his head forward as Lee Wooyeon told him. Dark red blood quickly dripped onto the tissue.

 

“I;m sorry. On the script… ”

 

Inseop pointed to the blood that had fallen on the script.

 

“If you have time to worry about that, take more care of yourself.”

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

“If you say you’re sorry one more time, I won’t make you the fan club president.”

 

Making light threats mixed with jokes, Lee Wooyeon pulled out more tissues and wiped Inseop’s face.

 

“I am…”

 

“Stay still. The blood is still flowing.”

 

Inseop quietly waited for the nosebleed to stop. It was a nosebleed after a long time. In the past, there were times when he woke up with a nosebleed and his pillow was soaked with blood.

 

“It still hasn’t stopped.”

 

“Yes…”

 

“Lie down.”

 

Lee Wooyeon grabbed Inseop’s shoulder and pulled him back.

 

“No, just…”

 

“Lie on your side. Like this.”

 

It was impossible to overcome Lee Wooyeon by force. Inseop was forced to lay down on the sofa.

 

“Are you tired?”

 

“I’m fine.”

 

It was probably a mental stress issue rather than fatigue. Inseop had always been like that. The next day, when he had an important exam or something he didn’t want to do, he would have a nosebleed.

 

“You know what doesn’t look all right?”

 

“…”

 

“Your face has turned white, your eyes are puffy, and your nose is bleeding. Isn’t this how Inseop will fall? I don’t know if I should ask to change you with someone else.”

 

“No! You can’t.”

 

Inseop jumped up and desperately insisted that he was okay.

 

“The nosebleed is not because of tiredness, but because of stress. It’s really ok. I can work.”

 

“Stress?”

 

“…!”

 

“Do you bleed when you are stressed? So reading the script here right now was very stressful, you mean?”

 

“That, that…”

 

“In what scene? The scene here where you put the thimble on your finger and kiss the cheek? Or is it the scene of hugging Kim Youngha’s back as he turns around?”

 

“… Are there scenes like that?”

 

The nosebleed, which had barely stopped, dripped again. Lee Wooyeon clicked his tongue, pressed Inseop’s nose with a tissue, and laid him down on the sofa.

 

Inseop closed his eyes as Lee Wooyeon looked down at him. He was terribly ashamed. The fact that he was stressed enough to bleed from just reading the script. And the fact that he recognized Lee Wooyeon as well.

 

It was miserable because the harder he tried, the more messy it seemed. As he closed his eyes, he felt a rush of tiredness that he had forgotten.

 

“But when you’re really stressed, does your nose bleed?”

 

“…sometimes.”

 

He used to get nosebleeds a lot when he was a teenager, but as an adult he didn’t bleed so much that he forgot that he had this condition. He thought it was a thing of the past, but over and over, the old faces of Peter suddenly appeared here.

 

Choi Inseop had to admit that he was now confined to his mental limit. It was so lonely. It was lonely and difficult, so he was mentally exhausted enough to want anyone to be by his side. The energy left in his body was used to hate Lee Wooyeon, so he didn’t even have the strength to lift a finger.

 

Tiring.

 

As soon as he realized that, fatigue came over him like death.

 

“Did you hate coming here?”

 

“Of course I…”

 

“It’s the manager’s duty, something like that. When I called at this hour, you didn’t want to come, did you?”

 

Normally he would have answered no. It’s nothing, it’s not a big deal if he didn’t sleep for a day, and that he could endure even more difficult tasks. He had to say it was nothing.

 

“…Yes. I hated it.”

 

When the honest answer came, Lee Wooyeon smiled a little. Inseop wondered what kind of expression he was making. He had to open his eyes and look at him, but lifting his eyelids was so difficult that it seemed impossible now.

 

“Why are you sitting still when you’re stressed out like that?”

 

“…”

 

It would be nice if that could be the case… He wanted to leave. He wanted to go out… But why does Lee Wooyeon’s voice sound so sweet? He loved it…

 

Due to extreme fatigue, Inseop could not contain the thoughts that came to his head and left him there.

 

“You can leave.”

 

Lee Wooyeon patted Inseop’s shoulder with the palm of his hand and continued.

 

“If you don’t like it that much, you can just turn your back and walk away.”

 

It was a soft voice, as if whispering a lullaby into a baby’s ear. Every time Lee Wooyeon touched his palm, he could feel Inseop’s shoulder twitch. So he didn’t stop patting.

 

From the day that Lee Wooyeon realized that the way he felt was different from other people, he made no effort to understand others. It was enough to memorize behaviors that were not understood.

 

However, the person named Choi Inseop was someone he could not understand. He couldn’t figure out whether he liked him or hated him. He was too sacrificial to a person he didn’t like, and his attitude toward him was disappointing for a person he did like.

 

He thought he would be able to distinguish them clearly if he put them next to each other, but it became increasingly difficult to judge them.

 

The fact that the manager, who was so sacrificial that he ran here without expressing disgust at a single text message, was so stressed that he had a nosebleed made him feel uncomfortable.

 

He felt like he was in a bad mood.

 

“Mr.
Choi Inseop. If you don’t like it that much, just quit and leave.”

 

“…”

 

Lee Wooyeon grabbed Inseop’s slender shoulder with the palm of his hand, as if hugging him.

 

If Choi Inseop said he was leaving, he was going to fire him today. He didn’t want to hold onto someone who hated him so much.

 

He liked that Choi Inseop made a troubled expression towards him or felt embarrassed, but he didn’t want him to seriously hate him

 

He knew it didn’t exactly make sense, but it did.

 

Lee Wooyeon was determined to get rid of Inseop before it got more complicated. It was a pity that he’ll miss coffee and food brought in every morning according to his taste, and perfect song selection that seemed to fit the mood of the day. Also the meticulous workmanship that never made a single mistake.

 

Most of all, it was a pity that he could not see the big, frightened eyes that looked carefully at him again. But he hated him so much, he didn’t need to be patient anymore.

 

“You can answer honestly.”

 

However, the answer did not come back after a long time.

 

“Mr.
Inseop. Are you still thinking?”

 

Lee Wooyeon bowed his head and looked at the manager’s face. It wasn’t long before Inseop, who he thought had just closed his eyes, confirmed that he had fallen asleep.

 

Amazing.

 

How could a person who was bleeding due to stress fall asleep in such a situation?

 

“haha…  Ha ha ha ha ha… haha, …Well, this bastard.”

 

The laughter didn’t stop. It was just absurd to be in an unpredictable situation.

 

He got up from his seat and swallowed a smirk , then looked at the manager’s face again. He felt like an idiot for thinking about things that were not right for even a moment. 

 

“Fuck, Choi Inseop…!”

 

Lee Wooyeon stretched out his hand to wake Choi Inseop from sleep, and then opened his eyes slightly. Choi Inseop was crying. His long eyelashes were tangled with tears.

 

It was a pitiful appearance that aroused cruel curiosity.

 

Lee Wooyeon suddenly remembered the poor puppy he had picked up out of curiosity when he was young. It was not known whether it had been abandoned or left the house, but the dog, deprived of love, was trembling with fear. He was intrigued by the little creature’s grunt, trying to get sympathy for his existence.

 

But the curiosity didn’t last long. The dog had been crying all night and had trouble sleeping. Eventually, at dawn, he took the dog and put it back where he had found it. The next morning he went to the place where his sister was having a riot and found the dog dead. He was not surprised. Because it was a natural result. It was raining and it was a cold day, so it was quite predictable.

 

But within that day, the younger sister cried as if the world had ended. Besides, the younger brother shouted that his brother had killed the dog.

 

He did not fully understand his sister’s accusations against him.

 

It wasn’t his fault, and it was the criticism that he couldn’t understand at all about what a big problem it would be to put back something that he had been holding for a while.

 

In the end, his sister did not speak to him for a month after that day. He also had to listen to a lot of admonitions about responsibility from his parents.

 

There was definitely a lesson to be learned at that time.

 

‘Do not pick up anything on the road. And once you pick it up, you must not let it go until you die due to the problem of responsibility.’

 

The problem was that his curiosity quickly cooled as he waited for the animal to die naturally. The only way to get rid of boredom was to kill animals. However, he never picked up an animal after that day, knowing that the nagging and post-processing that followed would be a nuisance after killing an animal. Even when he was dating a woman or sleeping with them, he never did anything that made him responsible.

 

Seeing the manager crumpled up like a mop and sleeping on the sofa, Lee Wooyeon remembered the wet dog crying in the rain. He memorized the human face. He did not forget the expression he had seen once because it was a training he had been repeating since he was young. He didn’t know if he knew, but that was exactly what Choi Inseop was feeling right now. The fear of a young puppy abandoned by the world.

 

Seeing the manager sleeping on the sofa trembling, Lee Wooyeon thought.

 

‘Did I pick up another son of a bitch?’

 

A complex emotion, neither particularly pleasant nor unpleasant, crossed over him.

 

The good news was that this bastard was trembling with fear, but didn’t cry.

 

Instead of waking him up, he wiped the tears from Inseop’s eyes. Choi Inseop curled up like a shrimp and wrapped his hands around his shoulders.

 

“… chu…”

 

In his sleep, Inseop muttered a little and crouched down.

 

Lee Wooyeon took a blanket from the bedroom and put it over Choi Inseop’s body. Now it was the best kindness one could give to a puppy.